This Christmas, I thought a lot about the fact that I will only have a few more Christmases living at home. That idea made me very sad. As I thought more about it and tried to figure out why the idea made me feel sad, I discovered something about myself.
I learned that I’m not afraid of the future. No matter what God has me do, be it mission work (as I currently believe my future holds) or anything else, I’m ready for that. God will equip me to do what he wants me to do, and I’m excited to see where he leads! Fearing the future wasn’t what was bothering me.
So why did the thought of leaving home upset me? I figured it out: to be honest, I am going to miss my family a lot. I have been blessed with a wonderful childhood and I love my family very much. Ever since I was little, goodbyes have been hard for me.
A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; – Ecclesiastes 3:4
However, the Holy Spirit gave me peace. Yes, I will leave home and I will miss my family. But most people have gone through the same thing. It will be okay!
Also, I was reminded to appreciate all the time I have with my family. I’m not going to waste it. Every day is precious, and that fact should be at the forefront of my mind.
Charity suffereth long, and is kind; charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up,
Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil;
Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth;
Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.
Charity never faileth: – 1 Corinthians 13:4-8a
Behold, how good and how pleasant it is
for brethren to dwell together in unity! – Psalm 133:1
I love you guys.
What do/did you fear about leaving home?